There I sat on the couch in the lobby of our hotel, my head in my hands. After getting the news from the doctor, I wanted a few minutes with the One Who wasn't surprised by the news I had just heard.
"Lord, You know all about this. Help me to trust You in this trial."
Immediately the words of Solomon flooded my mind, "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not on thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the Lord, and depart from evil. It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones." (Proverbs 3:5-8)
So now I understood a little better why these verses were favorites of my brothers and sisters in Christ who were diagnosed with cancer. When the dreaded disease becomes your own (or the diagnosis of one you dearly love), you realize that all you can do is trust the Lord. What else could I do? God made my body and also understands everything going on inside it (and outside of it, for that matter!).
Now He asks me to trust Him in this. There is no better place to be than resting in God's care.